Wake UP!

Sometimes, I think about friendship...I'm not sure if what the word "Best Friends" is real...no matter how much I think about it, I think that Best friends are the ones who could hurt you the most....This leads me to thinking " The ones you care for the most will also stab you in the heart one day, Not everything that goes around comes around. If you care for someone, so strong, you would never know how much they care for you whether its strong or not."

Trust--is a strong word. Takes very long time to trust people. It can easily be broken so easily.
Words--can bring joy and can shatter people's hearts. But cannot describe feelings/emotions.
Time--Equals Love. The moments that you Cherish with people is the most precious thing in life.
Fear--What I fear the most is loosing people...*reality!*
Happiness--everyone fights for it...
Love--is always shared but is limited
Friends--words that are only there...but True Friends are there whenever you need it...which doesn't exist...cause everyone will end up being lonely and nobody is always there or will always be there for you...

Sometimes, I tell myself to wake up! The pain that I have is in reality, yet its so hard to believe...I don't want to believe that there's this not a dream....I don't wanna see these....
*sigh*

~XL~

Dream on!

Everyone has their own dream, what they want to be when they are grown up! I have one too! But then people are telling me that I cant become that dream. Whose life am I living? My life! IT'S MY LIFE! Dont you forget! I've always dream about becoming famous. I want to be someone who everyone remembers. I really wanna become a singer...But then people are telling me I can't! *sigh*

唐小林

Fahrenheit ! :D

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Best Friends

Best Friends.

Do you believe that the phrase -BFF's- are true??

I want myself to believe it

& I do. 

But something I second guess myself.

I wonder, since one has left a scar, 

can the rest still do it??

The answer is yes.

But it really depends on your friends that you choose. 

Everyone has the same power. 

Even if you feel power-less at times

You have the right to make your own choices. 

But the choices you make, 

sometimes affect those around you.

-黄好美

Music

Music 

Music simply is just something I truly enjoy 

It can make me cry

smile

laugh

& even angry. 

But either way,

its something i truly enjoy. 

Like perhaps Jiro's song. Ti Wo.

Listening to his song.

my vision became blurry. 

There is a real meanning,

deeper in the song then you know

As long as you open your heart and open up

you will soon discover the real meaning. 

 -黄好美

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kEUwKVEelRw

Work Hard...

Work Hard. 

Believe. 

Wish. 

Want. 

Need. 

Happy. 

Sad. 

It's all just simply words. 

Actions speak louder then words. 

But it's just all within the word 

T-I-M-E

Time 

It matters on your time and effort put into. 

It matter's on how much sweat you're willing to strive for

Let me ask you a question. 

Would you lie, to a good friend, to keep them happy? 

Or 

Would you tell the truth, to let them know. 

Even if you know the chances of them being upset at you are high?

 -黄好美

I May Not B3.

I may not be the perfect daughter,

I may not be the perfect sister,

I may not be the smartest girl,

I may not even be the best friend,

I may not be so many things,

But...

I can tell you I truly do try.

Even though my eyes are filled with tears,

I try to move forward,

Even if my vision become blurry,

I give it my best shot.

I want to suceed,

I want someone to understand me,

I want something so simple,

But doesnt everybody want things?

But yet no one can see.

Maybe there is no true meaning of the word 'happiness'

Or maybe there is,

I just havent reached that far,

along my road..

to see the real meaning .

I know that you guys love me,

Or I would want to think that way,

But what is there,

 really,

If you don't even try to understand me,

If you can't even understand what frustrates me,

But yet you add more pressure,

All I'm asking, is for you to understand,

Because in my world,

I am alone

In this darkness

By myself.

I know, other people in this world are in more pain then I am, but everyone is their own person, to me, I want, should turn into the word "need."
But I didnt say need, because I have already lived this long, to understand, life is not perfect, you have to loose some, to gain some. I may be happy at times, but that was a moment.

People might view my world as warm, but have they considered what I really feel?

Dont judge a book by it's cover right?

I try soo hard to succed, but my results aren't good enough, to impress

I've thought about quiting, but I'm not a quitter,

I simply stay quiet

While moving forward with some pain.

- the quote:

The Future is to come,
now we live the present,
let history be a lesson,
so live life to the fullest !

It indeed is true, but not everything can be done so easily.

-黄好美

因為我是打破

There are many things in life that I don't wanna face. Many times that I feel lonely. The most precious things to me don't really notice and ignores it...The fact that I tell people how important they are to me just tears me apart. "In life, nothing will be realized or cared for other than themselves or their values"--XL
No matter how important something is to me...that thing will always tear me apart. My weaknesses in life are my importance. Why do I care so much for things? Why is it that I'm always at fault! Why don't I ever feel that happiness that everyone else does? Why me?! WHY!

I've tried to change how I am...It's really hard! My fantasy world...will....never....come true....
Whenever I'm searching for that someone....there's no one there for me! I've been a loner all my life! Never really trusted anyone till now...but then sometimes those whom I trust...tears me apart....I've always believed in the quote" what goes around comes around" I've never had happiness...I'm always worried about someone or things always get in my way. I wish I can break free and have smiles everyday on my face....Shinning so much!

Whenever I talk to people about my feelings, they always say "I understand how you feel. I feel that way too!" Hen baoqian. I don't believe....Yes I'm a stubborn person....I never really opened my heart to the world...cause I'm afraid...

Now I realized that all the things I've wished for....is impossible...I've always thought everything was possible for me....
Everyone! You've got my glass heart to a string....

Back to 4 years ago....
*sigh*

~XL

CGZ - HM

Thank You, Everyone for the birthday wishes. I truly wish, that every birthday wish i received this year, it will go towards to helping my little brother get better. No, he's not sick, but honestly, when people look at him, I can tell, they look at him & wonder, why his mouth is not right. There's nothing wrong with him & if you have something to say to him, please keep it to yourself, cause actions speak louder then words, but words hurt. Recently I've been feeling odd. I can feel, I'm not myself, No, I don't believe that it's because i turned a year older, i just know.

My Future is to come, but yet, every-time i think about it, i want to accomplished so many things, but then the people in my life, I don't want to disappoint. I try very hard to work towards my goal, but then there's always a few bumps along the way, I know thats part of life, but then its difficult to over-come.
My best friends, If you know who you are, I've always wanted to tell you, Something about you guys, makes me envy you. You may not know it, I may be your mei mei, but some of the reasons i do the things i do is because I want to succeeded, I look up to you 2, but then, I know, i have to walk my own path. 
I see you in my future, but yet. How do i know?

I LOVE my Fantasy world, but then when i wake up everyday, i think to myself, It's not true, Anything is possible yes, but then You have to get real with yourself sometimes..
People can say the words "Jia You" to me, I appreciate it, but then, I dont feel any different, if they didnt say it anyways.

I Love Music, So here, I'll share a song with you, By Steve Hoang
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBqLb0bXRv4
Just change the "girl" to BOY! lol
-I'm trying to let go. I dont wanna hold on to something and or any guy, that i know, that there wont be anything there. But thats a different story....

I don't need anyone to tell me what i'm thinking is wrong or right. I know exactly what i'm thinking.
But all in all, Please Stay safe & Take Cares of yourself !

-HM
-Quote From M3 ! -
Don't be afraid to cry everyone once in a while because crying doesnt mean you're a crybaby, it just simply means, you do have feelings.

< I made up this quote, yes, but then 4 me, I hold back my tears all the time, Why? I dont know. But I'm not the type to really cry in front of people.>

Peace