Xiao Yu....

It's sad to realize that when its my brithday, there's no sun....

在想要。。。

Everyone's got others to depend on...I wonder how being able to depend on a person feels like....Depending on each other to survive.....How about me? I know I've got people who cares for my health, of course that means so much to me....but I guess you can say that my conclusion is I'm afraid, afraid to have others being hurt by me. I know that the truth hurts, I just want to treat people equally and fair, but then Fair, equal and Life does not go together. I sometimes wish I had a shoulder that I can cry on at school, wish that I had someone that I can lean on, someone who I can be motivated by and can allow me to keep working hard, but then that's too much to ask for. Life moves on...

Can you guess what's this song?

English lyrics ONLY!



Your eyes were red when you touched my hand gently
sorry you said softly
my sadness, was not just hurting me
but also how you became so good at apologizing
sighing, silence, plus tears and tiredness
how can love still only have these left
was it time taht made us a bit stupid
we had happiness but forgot to remember
if i can no longer be infatuated
infatuated byt the happiness scent of holding you in my arms
maybe this way we can stop having too much expectations
expecting you to return to the future we promised

I listen to you saying that you love me
but the feeling feels so lonely
the smile only maintained for a few seconds before it turned soured
at this moment I just want to find an exit
to escape these absurd chaos and talk about to love or not another day

I think you really do love me but i'm also really hurt
or else it wouldn't be bitter when we kissed
where can i find an exit to leave you
but after I left you, where else can I go?

signing silence plus tears of tiredness
how can love only have these left?
was it time that made us become a bit stupid
we had happiness but forgot to remember

if i can no longer be infatuated
infatuated by the happiness scent of holding you in my arms
maybe this way we can stop having expectations.
listening to you saying that you love me
but the feeling was not moving
after this hug, will there be another one next time?
who is willing to tell me where is the exit?
which can let me escape from this whirlpool that almost drowned me
i listen to you say I love you but the feeling feels so lonely
the smile only maintained for a few seconds before it turned soured
at this moment I just want to find an exit
to escape these absurd chaos and talked about to love or not another day

I think that you really do love me, but I'm also really hurt
or else it wouldn't be bitter when we kissed
where can i find the exit to leave you?
but even if I do find the exit, where else can I go?

我想要一个出口。可是我不会知道我回去那里。

Well

I find it super sad how I try my best being super patient with the people around me. Its really hard whenever they aren't patient with you and just throws everything at you. Everything that I do is a big mistake! What's the point of bringing me to life since I'm the useless one. I have ways to do the things that I want to do. If your not happy with it just tell me! I'm ok with it but then you dont have to be so harsh. Yes I know that everything's limited but you should limit your temper. You always lecture. Never consider people's feelings. You have not right to talk about my friends, you have no right to talk about my family. You have no right to talk about me whenever your mad. You have no right to blow up on me because I'm not part of you. I'm so tired of life. Can't wait to get out and break free from this misery. I know that life is hard, but then I'm sure that I can survive on my own. I'm not like you.

Happy Anniversary to Celsius 女z

The day of our dreams! These girls means so much to me! We have been through so much together and will be together forever being here for each other.

First beginning!

Wishing these two girls the best forever! Thanks so much for being here for me. I appreciate it.

-XL

Hopes

This is too much for me. I've been thinking through. My hopes are just a waste of time. Everything that I do is just a waste of time. There's nothing that I can to do complete my dreams. No matter how much I try. It's not supported by the two people that i trust most out of everyone. I don't think i would be able to follow my dreams. I know that i shouldn't be putting my horrible mood on anyone...But then the fact is that I would never get to do what I want.
Fahrenheit once said, If you have a dream follow it.
I have a dream, but then it will never be complete. The people around you influence you too much. They are the ones that gives you hopes. But then If no one is there to support you, its hard....Well, I've worked so hard on trying to get my dreams to come true...but it's just going to fly away to another person who has the people to support them and who will be able to complete their dreams....

Ni Bu Zhi Dao De Shi...

Ni Hao Ma Tian Qi Ma(cover)

This song is dedicated to this one person, I'm sure its obvious!


邓福如 A-Fu – 你好嗎 天氣好嗎 NI HAO MA TIAN QI HAO MA (PINYIN)

在  梦   里 有  个 地 方     你 是  否  还  记 得 吗
你 说   过  的 每  句 话    我 都  疯   狂

迎   着  风   我 轻   轻   唱      随  着   落  叶 去 流  浪
又  想    起 了 那 一 首    Five hundred miles
人  总   是  有  些  话    说   不 玩  心  理 藏
平   安 吗   过  得 好  吗
怎  麽 传    达
人  总   是  没  办  法   去 明   白  去 原   谅
你 好  吗   天   气 好  吗
只  剩    这  样

在  梦   里 有  个 地 方     你 是  否  还  记 得 吗
你 说   过  的 每  句 话    我 都  疯   狂
迎   着  风   我 轻   轻   唱      随  着   落  叶 去 流  浪
又  想    起 了 那 一 首    Five hundred miles

a hundred miles a hundred miles
a hundred miles a hundred miles
a hundred miles a hundred miles
平   安 吗   过  得 好  吗
怎  麽 传    达
人  总   是  没  办  法   去 明   白  去 原   谅
你 好  吗   天   气 好  吗
只  剩    这  样

在  梦   里 有  个 地 方     你 是  否  还  记 得 吗
你 好  吗   天   气 好  吗
只  剩    这  样




zài mèng lǐ yǒu gè dì fang   nǐ shì fǒu hái jì dé ma
nǐ shuō guò de měi jù huà   wǒ dōu fēng kuáng
yíng zhe fēng wǒ qīng qīng chàng   suí zhuó luò yè qù liú làng
yòu xiǎng qǐ le nà yì shǒu  Five hundred miles

rén zǒng shì yǒu xiē huà   shuō bù wán xīn lǐ cáng
píng ān ma   guò dé hǎo ma
zěn me chuán dá
rén zǒng shì méi bàn fǎ   qù míng bai qù yuán liàng
nǐ hǎo ma   tiān qì hǎo ma
zhǐ shèng zhè yàng

zài mèng lǐ yǒu gè dì fang   nǐ shì fǒu hái jì dé ma
nǐ shuō guò de měi jù huà   wǒ dōu fēng kuáng
yíng zhe fēng wǒ qīng qīng chàng   suí zhuó luò yè qù liú làng
yòu xiǎng qǐ le nà yì shǒu  Five hundred miles

a hundred miles a hundred miles
a hundred miles a hundred miles
a hundred miles a hundred miles
píng ān ma   guò dé hǎo ma
zěn me chuán dá
rén zǒng shì méi bàn fǎ   qù míng bai qù yuán liàng
nǐ hǎo ma   tiān qì hǎo ma
zhǐ shèng zhè yàng
zài mèng lǐ yǒu gè dì fang   nǐ shì fǒu hái jì dé ma
nǐ hǎo ma   tiān qì hǎo ma
zhǐ shèng zhè yàng